I’m stuck
Right here,
Right next to you
My head boils and festers
These butterflies made their way from the pit of my stomach
my stomach to the front my head
And it’s giving me a massive migraine
They weigh me down so much
I can’t get my head off my desk anymore
And keep the tears from running from my eyes
The maggots are slowly eating away at my brain and stomach
And I can’t seem to think anything more but—
The dopamine rush
The exhilaration
That you somehow injected into my heart
The butterflies
And maggots
That you shoved down my stomach
Because of course life had to wreck me
And you are my life
I got tangled two months ago
How did you do it?
How did you make me fall for your trap with your
Thick hair
Oval eyes
Baggy clothes
Crooked nose
How did you manage to always make me think about
How your eyes softened
When you asked a question
How I feel listened to
As your soft dark eyes became sharp
When I talked
How you hummed
The same song during class
Your stupid smile
Everything
In a mere two months?
I don’t know
Your presence is a mystery
I don’t even know your last name
But you still managed
To weave me into this mess
And when I try to cut the lines,
Untie the knots,
Gain control,
Gain freedom,
I remain
Tangled.
By you.
I wish I could punch your face then kiss the bruise.
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